Mean dreams

I can't call it a nightmare because I wasn't scared.  I get so frustrated during many of my dreams.
I was hoped that my dream time would be a great time to escape the realities of my craptastic real life and participate in a better, imagined one. But to no availe, it is just as bad and even worse.

No sexy wet dreams; I get a relationship that is more frustrating than my real ones. How do you get turned down in your own dreams? Cuter guys, better sex but these dream boyfriends are meaner, ashamed to be with me, difficult to share affection....and my list can continue but that would be depressing.

My parent's, family and friends are even more needy and frustrated with me in my dreams.

I even get phone calls in my dreams that frustrate me. Last night, a doctor's office called and wanted me to relay a message to someone I knew.  Why am I takin messages in my dream ? For some reason, they wanted the patient to take the jet or maybe it was their helicopter for her appointment.  I think she had some treatments for her lungs.  They said her insurance would pay for it.  That's awesome and I can't even afford my monthly insurance but my dream friend gets to go by air.

Anyways, sleep never comes easy for me. If sleep and dreaming are alternate states of being, I'd rather stay awake .